As I went through this process, I had convinced myself that I would be leaving my present organization and would head somewhere else. I guess I thought that there was not a place for me inside my organization unless I was selling. I thought I would open myself up to the conversation of opportunities inside my organization and it turns out I was able to expand my role to better suit my interests. There was in fact a need for what I wanted to do.
As you can imagine, the emotional let down this created was significant. I was headed to a moment in time when I would start something new. This did not come. The drama was internal as I have to re-tool my role and find my way.
The key for to the path less traveled is having a clear picture of the first 90 days. The goals for my first 90 days and very clear in my head and on paper. It includes 3 buckets of my role and includes key markers for success. I continue to take time and visualize in my head how I want to work, where I want to work and the results. This helps me stay positive in the midst of ambiguity.